GUDNYT MY WIND

I went to the same coffee shop we’ve been to. I waited for you. I was reading magazines but once in a while, I would glance at the door hoping to see you arrive… As I always do, I ordered the reindeer potion. It seems just the same, usual feeling.

I remember I wrote this one and saved it in my computer in the office only to find out that all my files were deleted. And it’s just a memory this time that I wrote a beautiful story of you.

But I would still recall the day when I learn to give up someone I love because there was you. I remember how you treated me so kind and how you made me feel so comfortable. I remember you avoided me because it’s the best thing to do. I would never forget the smile that greeted me after a long mandatory rest from work.

I was grateful when you would notice and would ask why I look sad and you would be happy when I’m happy as well. I was at my best when you told me to go on and have a good fight…. I lost but you’re still there for me. I was so thankful too when you would let me decide, do what I believe is right but you’d like to know if I’m alright and you laughed when I said, true love is when you can let go of someone you deeply love. And you burst into a loud laugh when I said, it works!

I believe I told you over and over that I won’t be a fool wondering what might have been. I just do what I trust is right and would not let me look back and say I failed to do something. But one huge failure I would regret for the rest of my life is when I never said that I love you. More than what I can do and give you, had I seen your face light up if I said I never stopped loving you.

All these dreams seemed within reach when our path crossed again. A greater spark and a greater emotion was felt when you asked why we can’t do this before. Greater admiration when you told me to go on and take steps higher. And I assumed we’ll already be when you asked if I’d not be like the other. I miss you so much. I don’t know what to say. Then you’re gone again and I don’t know when I’m gonna see you again.

For whatever’s your reason, I’d let you be. I trust your discretion, I’ll always be. When time comes that we’ll meet again, carry my love and take it away.

So I say, gudnyt my wind, I keep you in my heart.

Gudnyt my wind, there’d be no other love.

Gudnyt my wind as if we never met but all these time ‘til forever is through, I’ll be wondering if I still can see you somehow, somewhere, someday.

Gudnyt my wind. See you in my dreams.

Like the wind that comes and leaves, my other love will just come and leave.

For now, I’m back in the same coffee shop and the door would be opened by the wind, take me back, I belong. Tell me to stop then I’ll move on. Tell me we’ll never meet again then I’ll close my eyes to see you in my dreams. Tell me you never get there then I would smile. I know you did and you’re there right now at least in the world I make believe.